I just wanted to express my appreciation again to those of you who have donated towards Beth’s medical expenses. I feel a burden lifted off my shoulders – thanks for taking some of it upon yourselves.
I am ecstatic to report that we’ve received enough donations to go to Seattle and almost enough for the portable oxygen concentrator (see today’s other blog for more info on concentrators). I was astounded to receive one donation for multiple hundreds of dollars which said ‘Get thee to Seattle, Beth.’ ‘Holy crap’ I kept saying to myself over and over again, and to Cheryl, too. It is a wonderful feeling to know that despite all the bad things going on in our lives, specifically with the medicos, that there are many people who want to help and give as they are able.
We’re waiting on some paperwork from Health Insurance BC and also some medical records and then we’ll be booking our appointment in Seattle. It’s something I’m excited about, but also anxious too. Will they be just another specialist who says it’s not their inch or don’t know what exactly it is? Will they want to do a bunch of tests – and who’s going to pay for that? What if they know exactly what it is, and they confirm that it is terminal? There are days I delude myself that Beth is going to be around a long time and that she’s not going to die. How am I going to cope with a reality that she won’t be by my side for decades? And if she is terminal, how long do they give her? And how am I going to support Beth through all of this? So many questions and fears…
Cheryl is going to come with which is great. She’s been a real support for both Beth and I. And I know Beth’s readers will also be there in spirit. And rest assured, you’ll all be hearing about it on our blogs.